A fool on Christmas...

I know people should not be fighting on Christmas...

but we did...

I don't know how it all really started... not that it really matters...

I was insensitive... I didn't think....

It seems like I never think... or at least not about the right things at the right times.

Either way .... things spun out of control... and shes hurt and its my fault...

Its always my fault. Always. Watching her tears fall, is like blood dripping from my own heart. It hurts to see her cry...

and I didn't try to fix things... till it was to late.

Maybe I am to proud... Maybe I am just a fool...

I think that's it... I am a fool... and she deserves better than me.

A fool living a fools dream. What else am I if at times I cant do anything right...?