Power Outage...

Ok... So here I am, floating off in dreamland of what-have-you. I never remember my dreams after I have been up longer than half hour. Its like they just fade away...

Anyway... here I am, floating off in dreamland and the power goes out. I am awake, just like that. All is silent and pitch black. There are no lights or even sounds. The fan that is on every night is dead. The kitchen light that shines into our room is dark. And I am just awake as if I have been awake an hour.

Spooky.

I never realized just how much those sounds and light play a part in my sleeping patterns. The White Raven and I got up, looked around for a little bit (we had candles), and poked at a couple of things. Eventually we went to bed. Sleep took a while to come and when it was... it was restful, probably the most restful sleep I had in a long time. It felt good... until, that is, the power came back on and I was awake all over again. I did not get up this time. I only rolled over and murmbered that the power was back on and tried to go back to sleep. It took a while... but I did and of course, it was not restful. It was almost like a half sleep.

Silence and darkness helps alot... Guess this means that our goal to Washington is just a little bit more important that just a desire. I want to be able to rest peacefully again.

The White Raven reminded me that I also keep a lot of things on my mind ... and that I worry about a lot. This is true. I wont deny it. But somehow.. it seemed easier to forget about it all in the dark silence of the power outage. When we set foot in Washington, QSS will be left far behind me. The closed in feeling will be left far behind us. The constant noise and shuffle will be a memory. All that hard sharp jagged gray dingy surfaces will be replace with soft smooth green textures. The weather will change. We will be surrounded by what the earth was meant to be. It may not change for us... but at least we can look around and smile again.