Priorities are not always so simple...

It is become known to me that there are 4 cornerstones in my life.

1. My Fiance
2. My Family
3. My Car
4. my Home

Without one of these things, then problems in my life will arise.
Yesterday, my car broke down. It is a key point in how I live my life. My Job has a back up plan should I not be there but for some reason I MUST BE there... even if a specific reason can not be given. I understand that it is the end of the month but this is my car... if I were to loose my job today, well then I still have my car and I am able to find a new job. If I can fix my car, then I can not get to work and I have depend on someone else and be on their schedule.

I have started to plan for tomorrow, which is why I have done all that I could to repair my credit. I want to spend the rest of my life with the White Raven and I can not do that if the both of us can not live happily.

Things in my life have to be done a certain way. It may be alright for someone else to just disregard an issue as an the only form of transformation being inoperable. But its not alright for me... there is no decent mode of public transportation and besides, I live to far away from work to really depend on that. Also, it will do not good if I carpool with someone else until I can get my car repaired. I still have to buy food and pay bills.

I could wait till this weekend but most auto-shops, if open at all, are only about for about 6 hours over that 48 hour period. I can do the work myself but I am not a mechanic... I really don't know whats wrong with it. I can speculate it is the alternator... but is it really?

If I get home after 5pm.. then I have to wait till tomorrow.... and find out whats wrong and then try to fix it. I don't have enough comparable time. Its easier to just try to fix it today ... and do the work tomorrow.

I don't understand why my employee can not put two and two together... the same personality in which I do my job is the same personality I do to live my life. Why would that change? I know they need me. I know I should be there... but I also know that there is someone there to fill my place and do what needs to be done basically while I take care of something that is just as important to me.

At some point I have to trust the people I work with. They have to start realizing I am not one of these children they hired to grind out settlements. I have responsibilities to not only my job... but to other aspects in my life.

I can go in tomorrow and do what needs to be done.

I am so tired of people just pushing me out of their minds when I am not around.

Do no disregard me just because I am "out of sight and out of mind."

The other thing I hate... is only want me when you want/need something. I am not an animal.